28th
oh the elusive aunt jenna
i think it’s safe to say my past is coming back to haunt me…
I’m aware that I was once on a dance team, that defined my life for a very long time. I’m aware I was once in a sorority. One that I ran and altered with pride.
I’m aware that I once was ‘loose in the morals’ and found a new set by way of love. You see, loving someone, when one doesn’t fully know themselves, makes a person love the parts of themself, they never knew existed. And once they become aware of these aspects, surely they will need an adjustment here. or there. But in loving someone else, and there isn’t enough room in a person’s heart to make changes to themself.
but there must be. I must do so. it’s imperative. And in loving lil miss ellie, I’m finding I can discover things about myself, through loving her. And we help each other. And grow together. And we grow apart as well
We both know this. She does not speak in full sentences yet, but she knows. She sees. She’s aware when a good cry will bring everyone around. everyone except for me.
We can hug, and cuddle. and laugh. and giggle. but most of all, we learn. We learn about ourselves and the world around us. We learn about each other, and the details of the universe. We learn about people. And we learn about love
And we learn how to love without always being near. We cannot always be near to one another. But we can always love one another.
And when we are near. We learn how to make the most of our time shared. Age old lessons that may need to be relearned. But, just maybe, this shared knowledge is already on it’s way to becoming wisdom….
